the river runs red...

coderyan @ 2004-07-12T16:30:00

2004-07-12T23:51:01Z

this past weekend was quite possibly the most ridiculous experience of my life.....this journal entry cant even try to explain how insane it ACTUALLY was, but here it is in a nutshell..

- gnatek getting arrested for having drugs at the boreder, and not even caring.

- hitch hiking 80 plus miles to montreal, at 1 in the morning, with no canadian money, and no fucking clue how to get there, home, etc.

- nicest dude ever picking us up and taking us there, the whole hour and a half trip.

- realizing we would have died had he not come.

- getting to montreal

- cannibal corpse girl being stupid, and us telling her to get the fuck out of our room (why was she there? we dont know) then taking her pillows
when she tried sleeping

- getting drunk at strip clubs at 3 o clock the next day

- trying to chew and screw.....but me getting fucking tackled by the huge doorguy in the middle of the busiest street in canada. then trying to fight him, but getting beat harder until i was brought back into the restaraunt, while everyone stared at me.

- back to strip clubs

- going to fucking foo foo elictric where a weird girl was obsessed with me, and tried like fucking me on the dancefloor.

- ted and gonya doing millions of ruthless awesome things

- gonya pukes off the balcony, and then some kid thinks its cool and starts talking to him

- not sleeping

- walking home from the lame "party" at 6 30 in the morning, while gonya drinks a 40 in front of cops

- 11 hour bus ride home, wondering how the fuck we were alive, and how we were getting home.

yup.
so whatd you do?

coderyan @ 2004-07-08T16:36:00

2004-07-08T23:55:38Z

man....things are sort of awesome right now.

last night was really intense and awesome, and i dont know shit is crazy.

also...i now have a Faith No More tattoo.

i feel like something really bad is going to happen soon because stuff has been pretty awesome.

altho....i dont know i ill be able to go to montreal tommorrow. so that might be the bad thing. i will be fucking ultra pissed.

so...is anyone going to billys party this weekend>?

oh yea also....my parents are gone this coming week. so ruthless things will go down in their house.

ok, this is a really weird entry for me

dude rock.

2004-07-06T03:53:10Z

this weekend ruled.

not one dull moment.
friday...went to boston, made fun of people.

saturday...show went well, party was fun. not to mention OZZY was there.

last night....was just ridiculously amazing.

now back to work..FULL TIME. sucks dick.

coderyan @ 2004-07-01T01:59:00

2004-06-30T23:38:55Z

so i was approached the other day at work, and asked to be the warehouse manager.

and...i had to say no because i have no fucking clue where im going to be in about 2 months from now.

it sucked.

so whats everyone doing for the FOURTH

coderyan @ 2004-06-31T16:41:00

2004-06-27T19:24:17Z

i fucking despise everything.

for every shitty band that gets huge off of looking cool, and ripping off other shitty bands like BRAND NEW....

...i just want to torture innocent children.

seriously.

why is everyone retarded?

why is it that when a band mixes whiny, annoying "screaming", with shit singing, pop punk riffs, and lots of tattoos and flowing black hair......every mindless retard declares them "GENIUS" and "AMAZING"

there is a new genre of music that is actually worse than NU METAL.

and its this fucking whiny/pop/emo/screamo/pseudo-hardcore shit.

ill take Disturbed over Taking Back Sunday in a heartbeat.

GET FUCKED WORLD

coderyan @ 2004-06-22T01:44:00

2004-06-23T04:10:05Z

when they do the "A Moment In The Life of Little Jon" skit on the dave chappele show.....

..i fucking lose my mind.

that shit is TOO FUNNY.

tommorrow me and my dad are going to see PRIMUS in boston haha.
this is like the first time well ever hang out.

coderyan @ 2004-06-21T17:41:00

2004-06-21T20:06:24Z

stop trying to be Captain Depression.

coderyan @ 2004-06-19T16:25:00

2004-06-19T18:56:57Z

holy shit.

seriously.

i really cant take this anymore.

and im going to keep complaining in Livejournal about how much i hate it here until one of my friends stabs me in the face.

massachusetts is burning a hole through my life.

i would actually feel better about myself if i was out doing crack and getting HIV.

coderyan @ 2004-06-15T22:25:00

2004-06-16T00:52:32Z

today i bought a '94 TEAL Geo Tracker hahaha.

i can take the top down, and blast 94.5 SO mid 90's!

also today, i wrote this...

hardcore hahahaha

i used to love hardcore.

now i am bored of it......and im realizing that there are way too many kids trying to be tough. its like every kid with a group of friends thinks its 'badass' to start a fight, and then let all their friends finish it.

its quite amusing.....apparently all these fucking nerds read American Hardcore, so now they want to make their lame WEAK ASS scene like the early-mid 80's NY scene.....and start fights and "gangs" and shit haha.

get some fucking balls you jocks. or go home and jerk off to pictures of me....BECAUSE YOU LOVE THE COCK....and starting fights with girls and kids half your size isnt going to hide it.

in 60 years im going to come back and find the graves of your mothers, fathers, grandmothers, daughters, sisters, girlfriends, boyfriends, and yourselves and i am going to dig up your bodies.......piss in your eyes, cut off your dicks and place them in your own asses, then....... rape your dead mothers, grandmothers, sisters, and girlfriends.......and then sell your corpses to a crackhead down the street so he can fuck you in the DEAD ASS for the rest of eternity.

then ill find all your children and sodomize them with a crucifix.

fuck anyone that this "journal" pertains to.......also fuck anyone you were close to thats dead. they deserved it for knowing you, and not stabbing your eyes out in your sleep.

coderyan @ 2004-06-10T02:49:00

2004-06-10T05:20:02Z

ok so.....two things..

1. i have the next 2 days off, so if anyone wants to do cool things im in. let me know.

2. there is a show sat night in CT.

show!! JUNE 12TH

Stab you in the head
Pale horse
guns up
brothers in arms/frenzy
Signs of Hope
victimize
our final say

$10 to get in
Groton elks lodge
700 Shennecossett Rd.
Groton, CT 06340

starts@ 5:30pm get there early for brothers in arms 1st show!

contact: erinechc@yahoo.com

go to mapquest for direx.

that is the info.

altho i dont know why im posting this....no one goes to shows anymore.

i mean why go to a show and hangout with friends and have fun when you can sit around your house all weekend and talk to ants??

i mean...who goes to shows anymore, really?

coderyan @ 2004-06-04T23:17:00

2004-06-06T01:51:19Z

officially the gayest fucking weekend of my entire life.

im serious when i say...

FUCK MASSACHUSETTS.

god damnit, i never thought id MISS going to the same 2 bars every single night.

FUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

coderyan @ 2004-05-30T19:28:00

2004-05-31T22:04:07Z

this weekends been pretty cool.

lots of practicing.

lots of hanging out.

and i fucking love it.

i like when people have small parties and all my friends go there and people just cool out and get a long and have fun.

i enjoy practicing, then cooling at brads, eating hamburgers and making fun of people who suck.

i also enjoy drunken scrabble with friends...and friends whom i thought hated me, but are now my friend again.

anyway...id like more of this every week/weekend but also a splash of the beach, and going to shows.

then i will have a sweet summer.

also today, we saw AS I LAY DYING at the Oxford Wal Mart. hahahaha

SO RANDOM

coderyan @ 2004-05-28T19:21:00

2004-05-28T21:55:27Z

sometimes things suck really fucking bad.

just fucking kill me.

2004-05-27T04:42:55Z

its almost June and im fucking shivering.

i hope everyone goes to gruberts this weekend because i need to hangout with my friends. plus, that bastard is leaving soon.

i dont know.
fuck.

coderyan @ 2004-05-22T23:14:00

2004-05-22T18:25:39Z

apparently we'll never practice.

today i could have gone to NYC and i bailed cuz i didnt want to get up at 8.

now im bored and i hate my life.

coderyan @ 2004-05-17T09:47:00

2004-05-17T05:03:49Z

being at home is weird as fuck.

but cool at the same time.

tonight i went skating with my long lost best friend, and we discussed how hes banging an 18 year old girl.

i just decided that although i do love life, and my friends....and most people i meet....

...i fucking hate tons of people, especially ones i dont know.

and i would just much rather sit on the computer listening to music and headbanging and playing air instruments.

ps. i love summer.

seriously......its like if it was winter.....and i just won a ton of money on the lottery, and like just bought the illest drum set in the world, and was like about to go on tour with my band that tons of hot girls love..

and then summer came....and my band broke up, and i turned gay, and went bankrupt..

id still be fucking way more psyched on life than i was in the winter.

just because thats what summer does to me.

anyway.
peace

coderyan @ 2004-05-10T12:53:00

2004-05-10T17:55:46Z

attention friends:

when i come home this week, i am going to have no money, no car and no job.

so my chances of getting a job in amherst without a car are definately bigger than my chances of doing that in oxford...

so if any of you know can help me out, or know of anywhere thats hiring, or knows anyone that could get me a job....let me know.

also, if anyone wants to go to the sperm bank in boston with me right when i get back....holla at me.

haha

2004-05-06T23:20:35Z

does anyone remember that time we went into some random girls' dorm room in Baker, and there was that kid passed out on the couch.

so we took a marker and started writing things all over his entire face.....including coloring in his whole nose, and then drawing eyes on his eyelids so it kind of looked like his eyes were open.

then we picked him up and brought him into the girls dorm bathroom and dropped him in there.

then he woke up and walked into the hallway and started pissing all over the wall in front of everyone.

then he passed out again so Tom took his cell phone and called his dad and was like "dad....i got soooo drunk and passed out. then these kids wrote all over my face and made me pee myself"

and his dad was like

"oh no son....are you ok???"

man that was funny...

but soooooooooooooooo mean.

this is funnier tho..

drunken violence: tell me if this is weird...

drunken violence: this one time last year i went down to san marcos and we got retarded drunk at this party and we came back to my buddies house and i slept on the couch and this really fucking stupid bitchy chick slept on the other couch in the same room.....

drunken violence: and she kept snoring and pissing me off so i jerked off and came on her face while she was passed out

playlist

2004-04-29T20:41:39Z

music that has been making me stoked lately.

1. sea of thousand
2. the a team
3. blame the victim
4. zombie apocalypse
5. the suicide file
6. mr bungle
7. the bud dwyer suicide movie
8. pantera
9. majority rule
10. 100 Demons
11. DIZZEE RASCAL

yea yea.

coderyan @ 2004-04-02T19:45:00

2004-04-24T00:52:51Z

today i:

1. found out some of the most relieving news ive ever heard in my life.

2. sold my BARFIGHT shirt for 12 dollars. (this was a drunken deal.....and i kind of want to castrate myself for it.

3. just received all the Sea of THousand mp3's.
yup.......STILL my favorite band.

the other day we went to the zoo, and i officially decided that my only goal in life is to own a MONKEY.
and from now on, everything i do is a step forward in my journey to monkey-ownership.

i will not participate in anything that does not directly affect this cause in a positive way.

also, we are going to see PEACHES tonight.

this is kind of strange

"bad news for people who love bad music"

2004-04-19T15:28:37Z

things....

1. going to crazy toy stores, and then buying ARROGANT BASTARD ALE and drinking it in the hot tub is awesome.

2. attention all hipsters:

you all think you are wicked cool and clever and smart.
you think that the music you listen to is SOOOO obscure and 'underground' just because they have weird vocals, and sometimes synthesizerz.
you think that you are wicked clever and hip......and above the general population of fuckholes....

BUT GUESS WHAT

you fucking dickheads listen to the same fucking music as MARY KATE AND ASHLEY OLSEN!!!!!

dont believe me???

go here. http://mary-kateandashley.com/hip_picks/
and click on "best cd"

hahaha you fucking retards

get a clue and some balls.

coderyan @ 2004-04-23T23:46:00

2004-04-15T04:48:56Z

watched Chopper again tonight.

yup.....it was awesome again.

taryns cool.

hahahahahahahahahahaha

2004-04-13T04:01:56Z

this man is a hero to all.

http://maddox.xmission.com/cam_whore.html

coderyan @ 2004-04-18T03:06:00

2004-04-09T08:07:57Z

got in a fight tonight.

with a jock.

and my friend grizz.

we destroyed.

coderyan @ 2004-04-15T21:33:00

2004-04-07T02:37:23Z

ive decided that id much rather go see Sea of THousand for the 5th time tonight, than go see red chord, and then want to stab myself in the eyes after i look at all the douchebags there and then have to see BURY YOUR FUCKING DEAD.

oh, Austin Stoner rock slash metal slash hardcore slash grindcore with deafeningly loud vocals......how i love thee